Leave out all the rest

Sometimes, I simply hate who I am
Not just who I have made myself to be,
but how I havent had much of the choice the way I am.
It's almost unfair, in my sense.
Everyone around me has what they want
All they ever dreamed up
All that teenage life is stereotipically seen.

Everyone, except me.

Unfortunately, I'm kinda confused about whether it's my own self that's choosing how I live,
Or if fate simply doesn't like me.
I try so hard.
I think I'm getting so close
But then..
I'm wrong.

and Everyone around me is happier and has what I want the most.
The temptation is eating me away.

P. S.

I hate kids.

Go on, save your soul.

I wish people could be people.
Not the way they think people should be.
The way they are supposed to be.
They way they were created.

Time usually helps
Teaches us to grow
But these days, it's hard
My head hurts from worrying about problems
That dont even belong to me.

Its time for some to realise
That life isn't all nutella banana sandwiches.
No matter how amazing
No matter how much the attraction
There's always something there to fear.

And fear ends up screwing us up.

Need = More

time ticks by
patience takes
its tole
its place

'want' is not
good enough
like it was
last month

people pass
say hello
lose their track
where to go?

they dont get
what i feel
where im going
feels endless, feels unreal..
feels unreal.

this want, this need, this cry i cry
takes me up and then waves goodbye
i feel you, see you, words i said
escape from hell, fly overhead

times like these, that can be done
will follow me, will keep me stung
this need will never end you see,
until that one need finally sees me.

<3SAP